Heidi Montag Liveblogs ‘The Hills’ 10th Anniversary Special

10:00 PM
Honestly, watching the special helped me appreciate my time in the mid-2000s and helps me move on with my life. The show was fun and special, and I took the best part of The Hills with me, Spencer. When I see clips of him, my heart still skips a beat. I met the love of my life, the most important person to me. Because of Spencer, I am very thankful to have been part of The Hills—both the good and bad things.

9:52 PM
I love the Little Market! Good for you, Lauren. Charity is very honorable, interning is humbling, and you have great perspective. You’re successful because you’re a role model. I am very proud of you, Lauren! You go, girl!

I have also met Hannah and love her.

9:39 PM
Overall, this special is a great Kohl’s commercial. I want to go to Kohl’s right now. I’ll buy some of Lauren’s clothes. They’re cute!

9:38 PM
I am so happy for Lauren and her marriage. Everyone deserves love like the relationship I have with Spencer. Love is so important, and she deserves happiness. I wish Lauren the best.

9:35 PM
Again, Lauren shares wisdom. I am struggling to watch this scene. The end of our friendship was so sad. Lauren was my best friend. I would never try to hurt her. I loved her, and I always will. Unfortunately, it is what it is, and we both have to move on.

9:32 PM
Brainwashed is the most annoying word. I never started a rumor about Lauren. I had nothing to do with Lauren and her choices, and it’s unfair that a decade after the show started, everyone still blames the drama on Spencer and me.

9:27 PM
The crew was not divided. They never came to my defense. They never considered Spencer or my feelings. They always took Lauren’s side.

9:26 PM
I’m struggling to watch Lauren cut me off. Emotionally, physically—she shut me down in every way. She refused to listen to me or give me a chance.

9:24 PM
KIM KARDASHIAN!!! I love her! She was always so nice and sweet. She attended our housewarming party and loved my jellyfish.

9:16 PM
Jason dealt Lauren a lot of drama. He dealt her a lot behind the scenes. I am so proud of how Lauren handled the situation and was strong enough to leave him. It was a very critical time. Rewatching these scenes, I think Lauren mistrusted Spencer because she worried he would do to me what Jason had done to her in season one. Lauren was being an overprotective, but loving, friend.

9:07 PM
Watching these scenes give me anxiety. For years, I’ve avoided watching these arguments. Tonight, they’re showing the clips and the behind the scenes footage. I feel like I’m watching found footage from a horror movie. My falling out with Lauren makes me sad, even years later. We were so young, but the show could have ended differently. We could have gone to dinner, agreed to disagree on our issues, and make up. We could have become friends again. It’s frustrating how our friendship ended. What would have happened if we remained friends?

9:06 PM
Audrina was our very pretty neighbor who we met at the pool. Well said!

9:05 PM
The memories!

9:04 PM
The beginning of The Hills was amazing. I met Lauren in fashion school. We became best friends and moved to Los Angeles together. I had no clue what I was getting myself into when I agreed to star on the show. I was so, so, so young.

9:01 PM
Lauren is narrating all our lives again. Surprise! It’s all about Lauren. Blogs have advertised the show as a “reunion,” but it’s really an LC special.

9:00 PM
“Unwritten” wasn’t just the soundtrack to Lauren’s life. It was the song of Audrina’s, Whitney’s, and my life too. “Feel the rain on my skin / no one else can feel it for you / only you can let it in / no one else, no one else / can speak the words on your lips.” I believe these lyrics. I live them.

8:55 PM
As I tune into MTV to watch a new episode of The Hills for the first time in several years, butterflies swarm my stomach. There’s so much history, good and bad. Moving into my first apartment in Los Angeles, losing my best friend, meeting the love of my life, Spencer—The Hills captured a pivotal part of my experience growing up.