Welcome to Coping, Episode Fourteen.

I was 26. I watched my fair complexion darken to grey, then black. The flesh fell off my skin in damp patches that were absorbed into the earth. Then I was bone. Those, too, deteriorated to fine grains that were picked up by the wind. And then I was not there. Where my body had been, there was only earth.

This was a guided meditation on death, led by a Buddhist monk, that I attended in the early aughts. My response to it was visceral. Disgust. Dismay. Fear. On some level, I just didn’t get it. I was young and healthy and beautiful and I was pretty sure that I was not going to die anytime soon and even if I did, it would probably be in some horrible accident. I would never witness this gentle decay of my body or the reintegration of it into the earth.

I filed that experience under WTF and never thought about it, which is what most of us do with thoughts of our own death. We don’t think about it. Or we think about it logistically and legally: Who will get my stuff and who will take care of my cats? The decay of our bodies is not our concern. It will be handled, chemically, by professionals.

But our culturally-mandated avoidance of thinking about death might not be helping us. In fact, it might be hurting us. Thinking about death might make you happier.

Read more about this phenomenon, and try a death meditation, because why the hell not?

Q: How do you cope with fear of death?

A: There are two types of phobias around death: necrophobia, which is the fear of dead things and things associated with the dead (funerals, cemeteries), and thanatophobia, which is the fear of one’s self dying. You can live a fulfilling life with either phobia if you have the right coping skills.

A good starting place, if you can do it, is to find a therapist who has experience in treating anxiety and phobias. It can be helpful to understand where your particular fear of deathcomes from. Often there is a trauma associated with the fear, whether it be the loss of a loved one or having come close to dying yourself. Regardless, a therapist can tailor a treatment plan to you and your specific anxiety.

Two things to try on your own:

1. Journaling: Reflect on a question or thought with five or ten minutes of writing (or more). Journaling will give you the space to reflect on your fear. You also might consider challenging yourself to counter the darkness by writing about things you’re grateful for.
2. Grounding: This is a mindfulness technique that helps you get into the moment and can distract from distressing thoughts. Listen to a song intently and notice the lyrics or bass line, pet an animal, hold an ice cube and watch it melt. Focus on your senses and your surroundings, giving yourself room to accept your thoughts without judgement.

If you are in a situation where you are facing end-of-life care due to illness, it can be helpful to have conversations with your family about a plan, whether it’s about how long you’d like to be on life support or what kind of celebration or funeral you envision. Having a plan and knowing your wishes will be carried out can give you a sense of comfort and control.

Thinking about death is scary—it’s final, and what comes after is unknown, whether you believe in an afterlife or not. Most of all, coming to terms with death being a part of life is important for moving past the fear.

This week’s answer is from Rachel Aredia, a therapist and ADAA member.

More stories:

• Most of our phobias are driven by the fear of death
• There are health benefits in contemplating the afterlife
• People obsessed with wellness can’t accept that we’re all going to die
• Meditating on your death could make you happier

Today’s comic, by Matt Shirley: