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Lonely Christopher: I suppose so. When I was writing and thinking that I was eventually going to write publishable stories, in a way that was working against the attitude of writing school. It was sort of designed as a bit of a fuckaround, and a lot of the students were idiots, you exempt.Thanks for that. Why is it such a fuckaround?
Maybe it's just an accident, I don't know. We studied under some really good teachers, like Joshua Furst, who used to teach at Pratt. He had a pretty defensible teaching model, which was he was going to take his students seriously, and whatever they were writing he was going to help them figure out logically how to develop that into something that worked.
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I didn't go to that class. I went once, and there was an agent there who lectured us in a very condescending way about the publishing industry, gleefully, it seemed, crushing our souls. What she told us was that no one was going to respect our integrity as writers and if we wanted a book we would have to write a popular nonfiction book, and then people would start talking to you about your novel.But you did get your fiction published, thanks to Dennis Cooper, right?
His interest in my work has obviously been life-changing. All of a sudden I had the interest of a relatively well-known established fiction writer who I had a lot of respect for. I mean, you wouldn't be sitting here asking me these questions if that turn of events hadn't occurred. So I'm really thankful for Dennis's support, and I'm happy that this book is out, because otherwise it would be sitting in a drawer and no one would be talking about it. It's been a startling experience having a conversation about my work occur in a room where I'm not sitting. That's definitely new to me.
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I don't know. My reaction vacillates between out-of-control pride and complete existential despair.I mean, I don't think there's any special or inherent quality in myself that makes me any better than anyone else who has to make those kinds of decisions, and I've been poorly managing my life so far and I just happened to hook up with a really small but big enough publisher in Brooklyn, so I have a book now.Well, in fairness, you're one of the hardest-working writers I know.
It's not to say that what I've been pursuing doesn't take a lot of work and sacrifice. I mean, I've been living a pretty indigent, despairing, bohemian lifestyle. I'm sort of embarrassed for myself the way I've been living. I don't know if this is something I picked up in school, but this tendency to be self-delusional and think what I'm doing is important enough to not have to figure out how to live in a very expensive city and try to make it work. Which it really hasn't been. I mean, I have a book, but the rest of my life is going completely to shit.I realize that we might lack a certain perspective and people might find it foolish that we're talking so gravely about our circumstances when we're so young, but I don't feel particularly young.That's fucking depressing.
I mean, I know I'm living like a child, but—Like a drunk child.
Like a very drunk child.HARRY CHEADLEThe Mechanics of Homosexual Intercourse Book Release
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